its just a damn boring day today. and finally i've decided to blog to vent my anger. just msged him just now. we were quarelling like hell man. and of cux i started it. i am so damn pissed bout him esp now frens. so called frens yar rite good buddies as if la. he treat me like shit liddat lo. esp thinking bout last wk. nv did a guy once used violence on me. and yes he did. HE WAS THE 1ST TO BE THAT PERSON ON MY LIST! ass him la. i nv once hated or disliked him that much. but hah. he made me so. i didnt hate any guy tat much before even though i had some arguments with some frens but he changed history. great man. treat me like shit good enough of him already. tt's when we're together. wan to die then die la. go ahead no one will stop ur bloody nonsense. he thinks that i will be sad grieve over him.hahahaha.so farnie. wad a joke. i will of cux as he means sth to me. but on the other hand i will not. want to ppl some1's life in guilt for a lifetime by doing such things?? esp to ppl like me? when i do nothing wrong to you in the 1st place. ya wad u said. everything's bout me and myself. great??? all ur fault not mine? happy??nv did u think that at some occasions u were the one totally at fault but wad happened? me apologising to u. its ok with me. but as time goes on. i cant stand tt ok.
esp last monday 27/03 everthing happened. being violent grabbing ppl's wrist is bad enough. i wan to slp or go home olso cant. wad to do. stay there and listen to ur nonsense. i did the right thing i guess. tat is to end it off. wad for to continue?? with such a person like this. let me live in fear for like 3 whole months. tt's scary. imagine being with some1 who always want to commit suicide because u wanna leave him and so on. i dunno anth already.
just had a long chat with my long lost fren. at least i vent everything on my fren. i feel much more better now though. but i still cant concentrate well. im just daydreeaming thinking of many things. like wad happened during maths test just nowl. i cant do simple qns duno wad's happening la. it will just drive me to my grave someday if this continues.
i dunno wad to comment on him but he realli does have a sucky attitude towards me. and its not towards himself or his frens. but ME! DAMN HIM LA.
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by David Archuleta
I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time deep inside
It was a rush, what a rush
'Cause the possibility
That you would ever feel the same way about me
It's just too much, just too much
Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I've just got to know
Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?
Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Has it ever crossed your mind
When we're hanging, spending time girl, are we just friends?
Is there more, is there more?
See it's a chance we've gotta take
'Cause I believe that we can make this into something that will last
Last forever, forever
Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?
Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I've just got to know
Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?
Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
This crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
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