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C R U S H
by David Archuleta
I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time deep inside
It was a rush, what a rush
'Cause the possibility
That you would ever feel the same way about me
It's just too much, just too much
Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I've just got to know
Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?
Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Has it ever crossed your mind
When we're hanging, spending time girl, are we just friends?
Is there more, is there more?
See it's a chance we've gotta take
'Cause I believe that we can make this into something that will last
Last forever, forever
Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?
Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I've just got to know
Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?
Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
This crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
CRUSH!!!
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Once an Acs-ian ( arts and science student) should say a mix of both
Ex ACCO cellist. Loves her Cliques - the LMAOs(consisting for 2 NJ, 3 AC, 1 NYJ & 1 PJ)
The ACCO people
Class of TF04 in NP
Bestie - Joson
Fader turned Sand - Jackson
Girl that's always there - AnLi
and basically anyone who's always there or secretly there for me.
F I F T E E N
RANDOM FACTS
RANDOM FACTS
well, i am 18 years old, aren't i?
SPARKS OF EVIL..
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T O D O L I S T
13/10 FTT and many more?
T A G B O A R D
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RANTTSSS
6:28 pm - Monday, July 31, 2006
wtfwtfwtfwtfwtfwtfwtfwtfwtfwtfwtfwtfwtfwtfwtfwtfwtfwtfwtf. haha. i dunno la.damn pissed la. everyone just blame me.blame all u want ok. i love it. haha. tt's a great thing to do. and .wei kok just tell joson ur story.i hate everyone now!!!! im the one at fault wad. blame all you wan la. i caused sufferings and ruin ur life. good la. i destroy people right?? den stop me then since u said all these. kill me ok!!u caused mine to become much worst than yours ok!!!!!stupid life and stupid world.im so glad to have met you until that day. ur true colours were so amazing. start using vulgarities to scold me huh?? well i dont bother anw. cux i dun even use that till u do. aiya. forget it la. just blame me and KILL ME!!! IF ALL THESE STOPS THE WHOLE MATTER. ANW UR SO HAPPY WAD AFTER ALL THESE HAPPENS. ITS ME WHO SUFFERS ALL THESE SETBACKS ANYWAY. HMMM DAMN MAD AND FRUSTRATED NOW. SO MUCH FOR LOVING SUCH A GUY TILL SUCH A STATE. CAUSING ALL PROBS. ARGH. I HATE IT. JUST BLAME ME FOREVER AND EVER. IM GLAD TO BE LIKE THIS. THANKS TO YOU AND UR COUSIN. BTW I DIDNT EXPLAIN WHY I LEAVE U RIGHT. CUX U DUN WANNA LISTEN. IF U DID I THINK NTH OF THIS WILL EVEN HAPPEN. HAPPY NOW??? I KNOW YOU ARE. YEAH. NO ONE'S STANDING ON MY SIDE OK. AND YOU WANT U TELL ANYONE U NOE LA. ESP UR DEAR LIL COUSIN. LET THEM NOE IM AT FAULT. GREAT MAN. IM SO CHILDISH HUH. U SAID TT OF ME IN THE 1ST PLACE. TO THINK OF TT. I WAS LAUGHING. GUESS WHO'S SO MATURE NOW??
4:51 pm - Saturday, July 29, 2006
well. had a fight with him. damn hiong ehx. lousy la.there's no such thing as a girl go wack a guy. 1st time i think. shameless. haha. anw i leave the things to settle to ms seah and mr lim. they dunno talk wad crap la and i didnt say bout wad happened today. mr lim cant control me. haha. he could stop me. when i came out from e5 after that drama thing. he came up. so fast ar. but he's blur and he kept calling si en sien., dunno how many times. i just walk past him with the damn angry look cux i realli was and i threw my pencil case books and calculators at the chem lab and mr lim came again. calling my name and i dun care him. wad to do. he olso walk away. haha and told ms seah bout me. so she went to ask li hui and shin yun wad happened or sth liddat. proed. anw i was damn angry la. at some shameless guy called wad?? TEO WEI KOK. plus his shameless parents. they're scared wad. when ms tay called them. called my mum immediately and asked wad happen.lmao. and he think he's strong ar. lousy. onli noe how to shout. of cux i'll lose to him looking at his fat size. im so thin and skinny how to win. but i win in terms or guts man. my class was like asking wad happened ytd. when the drama came. and its damn loud la. i shout he shout. and he's damn childish. who's wrong in the 1st place. YOU LA!!! SHAMELESS BOY. IMMATURE . AND U USED TT TO SAY ME. PRO AR. UR THE ONE WHO IS SO IMMATURE CUX U BLAME UR FAMILY PROB AS MY FAULT. U AND UR PARENTS ARE THE SAME. DUNNO HOW TO SETTLE PROB AND UR GIVING ME TRAUMA OK!!! DRIVING ME CRAZY EVERY NOW AND THEN. DUN BE TOO HAPPY BY THE WAY. HAH. I GRABBED HIS ASS SO CALLED COUSIN YTD. CUX DAMN ANGRY. SHE'S SCARED LA. CUX NO STRENGTH WAD. HAHA. I JUST SEEM TO HAVE MUCH STRENGTH NOW. MUST REGAIN MYSELF NOW. HMM.im damn sad and angry too la. some weird kind of mood i think. talked to ms seah in the staff room. for like 2h plus and missed history remedial cux of tt. great ar. but i missed alot of lessons already. anw told joson bout it already. he said he guessed correctly. but not sure. and he's shocked bout it. cant believe it rite. such a pervert
anw. cello/bass was ok. standard wasnt tt good of cux. cux we're better. up till now all are like coping with the notes. its like it should not be the case. ha. anw i think i didnt do a good job ytd. should realli go aim tt part. i did but he shunned. my reaction too slow. try next time. haha. my frens tried to stop me and so they went in. but didnt. cux they're scared and e5 like suffering from shock or sth. hmm. lim kai and benny wanted to pull me out but turned out standing outside the class staring. lame lehx. should help me wad. just kidding. I JUST WANT THIS TO BE SETTLED ASAP. AND TO UR DUNNO WAD SMBM OR WAD. U DONT KNOW WTH IS GOING ON AND DONT BE AN EXTRA. WAIT TILL UR ONE VICTIM AND U'LL DO THE SAME THING AS ME. =)
anw. cello/bass was ok. standard wasnt tt good of cux. cux we're better. up till now all are like coping with the notes. its like it should not be the case. ha. anw i think i didnt do a good job ytd. should realli go aim tt part. i did but he shunned. my reaction too slow. try next time. haha. my frens tried to stop me and so they went in. but didnt. cux they're scared and e5 like suffering from shock or sth. hmm. lim kai and benny wanted to pull me out but turned out standing outside the class staring. lame lehx. should help me wad. just kidding. I JUST WANT THIS TO BE SETTLED ASAP. AND TO UR DUNNO WAD SMBM OR WAD. U DONT KNOW WTH IS GOING ON AND DONT BE AN EXTRA. WAIT TILL UR ONE VICTIM AND U'LL DO THE SAME THING AS ME. =)
10:20 pm - Monday, July 10, 2006
feel like blogging again. cux im so bored and i dun feel like studying tests for chem and physics!! i have no mood in it. fail den be it. i just feel the pain all over again ever since last wk. but it's getting worst these few days. and when my friends ask if im ok. i will say ' yup im ok. dun worry' but in fact im really not. im just controlling my emotions. i dont like it. its tightening my chest and throat. i thought i would be ok once i finish the course of antibiotics well it didnt. sighs sighs. who made me smile today? jasmine- frenemy, she smacked my butt with my history textbook. lol. she's crazy. but at least i did smile right? if not i'll just keep my emotions and i'll explode once im alone. argh. i'll get going den. i wish him the best in life and hope he doesnt hurt any others already. because i feel that im the 1st one to be hurt so badly. and i've nv treated someone so well before. i will not blame anyone. but myself. i've brought everything upon myself. that's my conclusion. since both of us have so many conflicts and differences i will not force myself and even u into it. effort is not said and it is to be felt. ur efforts are just in the wrong way now. its not like wad it used to be. they are to control people and it causes depression to some ppl. esp the incident like commiting suicide cutting one's arm and so on. its my 1st time experiencing it. and im the one who was hurt till now. it still leaves a great memory in me. i couldnt forget. im just so afraid of you now. and even myself.
10:02 pm
well. damn sad these few days. heard that he was realli ok and normal. and im actually glad to hear that. though im damn hurt la by everthing. trying hard not to think bout it. but every moment i've been thinking bout it. argh. wth is going on with me. and everything came back again. i think the helicobacter pylori bacteria isnt gone yet!!! hate it. and i've been 'sleeping' these few days. i cant even slp well. argharghargh. i cant stand it at the rate im going on now!!coping with every single stress and even mental breakdown. i cried but i try not to. it hurts alot. and when i saw what li hui sent me i cried even more. as she cared. im realli touched and wad she said had moved me alot. i have to cope with my life on my own now i guess. at least my frens are there to support me.i hope so too. trying not to think of anything right now and concentrate on studies which i realli couldnot. sighs. im just heartbroken and i will not believe in everlasting and forever. all these are fairytales. they arent real in wad ever situation.
i'll be going for appointment check tml being brought forward as my mum called the doc about my condition and she said i have to go for check immediately. its just too pain for me to handle it. so many problems now. and i hope im not a burden to anyone. especially my dear parents. they are like too busy and still have to take care of me. im really sorry. and now. my mum's fetching me home everyday from tomorrow onwards. hmmm. well i thank her for taking care of me. she wants to protect me. lol. she dont want me to be hurt. seeing me hurt, i could feel the pain in her too. hope everything goes on well for me. im just crying over spilt milk. =(
well, life sucks now !! i wish that everything just appear as a dream for me.
i'll be going for appointment check tml being brought forward as my mum called the doc about my condition and she said i have to go for check immediately. its just too pain for me to handle it. so many problems now. and i hope im not a burden to anyone. especially my dear parents. they are like too busy and still have to take care of me. im really sorry. and now. my mum's fetching me home everyday from tomorrow onwards. hmmm. well i thank her for taking care of me. she wants to protect me. lol. she dont want me to be hurt. seeing me hurt, i could feel the pain in her too. hope everything goes on well for me. im just crying over spilt milk. =(
well, life sucks now !! i wish that everything just appear as a dream for me.
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