well. damn sad these few days. heard that he was realli ok and normal. and im actually glad to hear that. though im damn hurt la by everthing. trying hard not to think bout it. but every moment i've been thinking bout it. argh. wth is going on with me. and everything came back again. i think the helicobacter pylori bacteria isnt gone yet!!! hate it. and i've been 'sleeping' these few days. i cant even slp well. argharghargh. i cant stand it at the rate im going on now!!coping with every single stress and even mental breakdown. i cried but i try not to. it hurts alot. and when i saw what li hui sent me i cried even more. as she cared. im realli touched and wad she said had moved me alot. i have to cope with my life on my own now i guess. at least my frens are there to support me.i hope so too. trying not to think of anything right now and concentrate on studies which i realli couldnot. sighs. im just heartbroken and i will not believe in everlasting and forever. all these are fairytales. they arent real in wad ever situation.
i'll be going for appointment check tml being brought forward as my mum called the doc about my condition and she said i have to go for check immediately. its just too pain for me to handle it. so many problems now. and i hope im not a burden to anyone. especially my dear parents. they are like too busy and still have to take care of me. im really sorry. and now. my mum's fetching me home everyday from tomorrow onwards. hmmm. well i thank her for taking care of me. she wants to protect me. lol. she dont want me to be hurt. seeing me hurt, i could feel the pain in her too. hope everything goes on well for me. im just crying over spilt milk. =(
well, life sucks now !! i wish that everything just appear as a dream for me.
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C R U S H
by David Archuleta
I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time deep inside
It was a rush, what a rush
'Cause the possibility
That you would ever feel the same way about me
It's just too much, just too much
Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I've just got to know
Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?
Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Has it ever crossed your mind
When we're hanging, spending time girl, are we just friends?
Is there more, is there more?
See it's a chance we've gotta take
'Cause I believe that we can make this into something that will last
Last forever, forever
Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?
Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I've just got to know
Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?
Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
This crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
CRUSH!!!
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