haha its long ever since i've updated. well im trying to avoid many things now. esp him. hmmm. so due to the stress im getting now from sch from work from everything. i've decided to drop out. asked ms tay and she said to reconsider and not regret. and its hard to handle the situation now seeing that i've taken my chi o levels and got an A1 and the o levels are just around the corner. well nvm. i've decided not to look at the negative points. i've regretted many stupid things ive done this yr in my life. bringing so much setbacks to myself and making ppl mock at me. yea. im so glad to be in such a state. argh. forget it then. im a stupid spoilt brat wad. ppl think im crazy and whatsoever. its ok.
li hui called me ytd and tt made me so much happier. talked rubbish on the phone for like an hour plus. i wasnt in the mood at 1st. but hmmm. she has cheered me up and look towards a better life. im trying now. but its just too hard on me. what a big blow. of cause to me and not anyone else. seeing how the others are living life now?? im so happy for them and while im suffering i dont want anyone to noe what im going through so i've made this choice. wonder if i realli could. cux i realli couldnt concentrate in sch and i dread the days im in school. long hours and i've to walk past some class. which made me damn upset and depressed. been staring blankly in class and home for many times. stupid right? lol. ok. enough of that. i've decided to give up on myself actualli. just wanna run and escape from reality now. if i die now wouldnt tt be a good thing?? yea. ok then. i'll just rot and become useless in this competitive society and wish that everyone and my friends do well in future. =)
i've come to realise i've regretted what i've done. and its just a great lost to me.
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C R U S H
by David Archuleta
I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time deep inside
It was a rush, what a rush
'Cause the possibility
That you would ever feel the same way about me
It's just too much, just too much
Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I've just got to know
Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?
Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Has it ever crossed your mind
When we're hanging, spending time girl, are we just friends?
Is there more, is there more?
See it's a chance we've gotta take
'Cause I believe that we can make this into something that will last
Last forever, forever
Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?
Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I've just got to know
Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?
Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
This crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
CRUSH!!!
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