haha. i just got home. i skipped physics remedial today. and tt was really great. thanks ignatius for accompanying me today. well i was really depressed and i want to get out of everything i am in now. seriously. i couldnt stand this feeling anymore. people out there enjoying their youth well me being mentally crazy. lol. okok. i'll continue later for the last few days. its really fun out there. haha. ok. yea. be right back. copying JASMINE'S SOCIAL STUDIES NOTES NOW. im damn guai. cheers. tsk

im back. copied half way. heck it man. i dun like doing any work now. so damn bored. watched tokyo drift today and tt was like during phys remedial?? pretended to be sick. lol and i actually was la. i didnt slp for a day. so im so beat now. well i just have so much energy to be awake, funny though. on sat i was like late for piano lessons cux of joson. lol. stupid fren. well. i rushed all the way from bukit timah to sch just to meet him. i thought i'll be early but no i was not. i missed like 2 buses so im late. ok. and both of us negotiated with the guard to allow us in. so after some time. he allowed but told us to get out of sch at 1 which we didnt. so went in and yea to see the juniors and so on. got scolded by ms lim. well its like wth. say tt both of us being seniors shouldnt spend time talking to juniors. haha. ok. but both of them are like tired wad. so i didnt realli bother. so cheryl said i changed alot. ?? yea i realli did. im not myself lately. but i dun give a damn already. all of u meant well for me. and i noe that. but i realli dont bother anymore. that's because many unfortunate events happen this year and people are just selfish for themselves. despite the dead or the living ones. i hate it. bringing so much problems to myself. i thought i was the one who was really selfish. but well im not. im insane. haha. so after co prac. went to wei ning's house to change. and she didnt put on any make up or sth else. im shocked. ok. so the foursome. me joson wei ning and edison headed for town-cine. watched cos play yea. and took some pics. stood there for quite a long time. and then we went in. shopped and yea talked bout cello and bass. den decided to head for the esplanade. so we walked all the way there. its so damn tiring. we stopped wherever we went. to eat drink and looked at cello and so on. tt's cool haha. not tt bored after all. so when we're there we're looking at the nice displays of cello. and whoa. its so damn ex la. one of them looked like the one i was using. quite nice. and then we walked to marina square. didnt expect a huge crowd. well its because of the fireworks. lol. so its like we didnt expect anth but gained sth out of it.hmm. waited for seats at the food court and ppl are so damn inconsiderate. i despise such ppl. and then went for the nice show. haha. fireworks. im quite short so didnt get a nice view. but i still did in some way. hah. escorted edison to the mrt and the trio went back there. decided to thon. and yea we're super lame and bored,. wanted to help clean up the great mess at marina square. lol. we're crazy ppl. so walked around and then to the merlion. its cool there. the sea breeze. and i dozed off first. so quite. haha. for a few min. lol. cux im really beat. walked the whole day. and then im awake again. both of them are having some fun though. some drawings?? im not sure. then walked around bare-footed. and so on ........ so its realli cool staying out at night. i love it. dunno why. actually i just wanna numb myself from everything. im just simply too depressed. and well no one understands such a feeling. with so many upcoming events. so i give up on myself. its either a drop out. or i'll skip as many lessons as i can and just fail everything during O levels and get no where. which one would i choose?? a drop out will be better right? agree? than to see so many lousy grades and just an A1 for chinese. stupid!!and so we ate supper joson's treat and then i treated to take cab to cine. haha. quite broke actually but to get to our destination asap i decided tat we should take cab. slept on the sofa outside ezone. and yea woke up by the guard who wants to chase us. well i slept for such a short while and there he came. argh. ok den played hangman with them. on ms ee. hah/ cool.=) 3 of us are realli tired and i think onion slept the most. haha. and wayne is forever awake though she's tired. ok. took 190 at 6.45 waited damn long. and slept all the way back.actually i decided to go somewhere since its near to lot1 but its too earli so i went home. slept for 2 h den went to church and for some pastoral counselling. den went to cine again. lol. watched click. lame show. and yea while waiting for my sis and church members at the lift. saw swiss ppl and some unwanted guests. haha. wanted to do so much at that point of time. cux in public damn shiok la. but i decided not to. give some face to some ppl. hees.=) and so i didnt bother and just said hi to xin yi. and life goes on.

in sch today. i cried again, stupid right. all mdm tang's fault. stupid teacher. talk bout some voodoo doll. walau. and then my frens knew i have. and then played with it. and den shin yun hung it on my pencil case. and this brings alot of memories la. i held on. and so took it out. and walked back to class on my own. haha. i kept going to the toilet for some stupid reason. to wake myself up. but it dont work. and then i listened to kiss goodbye and started to cry. argh. ok. cux shin yun doesnt noe who gave me tt. onli kah hwee noe i think. hmm. and so after tt. threw it but i picked it from the bin again. and headed for lot one. and tt's it. i skipped the boring remedial and everything in life. i dont like to stay in sch for some reason. im just torturing myself from many things which i know. well its myself to blame. cheers. and best of luck to me and my distorted future. i thank everyone for ur encouragement but im realli very stupid. thanks for ur comments anonymous. i agree to tt. cause i am one. and ur not. ur the smartest person i've ever noe. who doesnt care for ppl at heart but onli for yourself. claps. well i do. so im doing all these fucking stuffs to bring happiness to everyone around me. hahahaha. great life man. tt's all i can say.