SORRY PEEPS. IN REAL LIFE I'M NOT LIKE THAT. YOU GUYS SHOULD KNOW. THESE WORDS COMING OUT FROM MY MOUTH DAMN HARD LA. ANW IT'S ONLY WRITING. DONT TAKE IT TOO HARD



FFFFF. IM NOT GONNA CARE HOW I WRITE NOW. I SHALL JUST RANT LIKE SHIT BUSINESS. I FEEL LIKE FFFF----INGGGGGGGG PPL. AND IN MY SENSE. NOT THE SENSE OF HAVING CASUAL FUCKING FREE SEX. OR USE PPL AS SEX TOOL LIKE YOU KNOW WHO I'M TALKING ABOUT. I MAY SOUND VERY VULGAR HERE NOW. CAUSE IM SUPER PISSED, CONFUSED AND I DONT KNOW WHAT'S LOVE. IM LIKE HOOKED BY IT ALREADY. DO I LOVE??? YES / NO?? I SAID I DONT KNOW. SAY I WANNA JUST FLING. SIAO AH. KNN.. U THINK I'M THAT KIND. I THINK YOU'RE THE ONE. LIKE HOW U TREAT GIRLS. SO NICE LO. ME? I THINK IT'S JUST WHAT EVERY BF WILL DO AT LEAST. MY TRUST FOR HIM OR RATHER MY LOVE FOR HIM SORT OF FADED. MAYBE NOT FADED. IT'S LIKE DEMORALIZING FOR SOMEONE TO HEAR THAT OOHH. PEOPLE/ HUMAN ARE WHAT???.. CIVILIZED. AND MOREOVER, BECAUSE OF THAT WE WILL TEND TO LOOK FOR FRESHER STUFFS. YES INDEED, TO THAT POINT. I FUCKING AGREE, BUT THE OTHER PART COMES IN, WHY DO BOYFRIENDS (GUYS) CHEAT ON THEIR GFs????

REASON 1: THE GIRLS ARE NOT GOOD ENOUGH.
REASON 2: CAN'T SATISFY THE NEEDS OF THE GUY (SEXUALLY, OR EMOTIONALLY, OR WHAT I DON'T KNOW.)
REASON 3: CAUSE THE GUY LOST THAT SO CALLED FEELING OR LOVE FOR HER FOR ANOTHER PERSON.
REASON 4: I DONT KNOW.
MAYBE THERE'S MANY MANY MORE.

UPON HEARING IT, I TELL YOU MAN, I AM SO DISAPPOINTED. YOU SAID YOU'RE VERY DISAPPOINTED IN ME, WHICH IS A VERY BAD WORD ALREADY TO YOU. CAUSE IT SHOWS THAT THE WAY YOU TREAT ME WILL CHANGE OR WHATEVER. AIYA. I HECK LA. TO SPEAK OF THE TRUTH. I DO THINK I'VE FALLEN FOR HIS FUCKING BRAINS. WHICH I CALL MYSELF DUMB. CAUSE I'VE ONLY FELT IT AFTER THE BREAK-UP. AND I THINK THAT WOAH, ACTUALLY I WON'T BE THAT SAD AFTERALL BY NUMBING MYSELF, BUT I GUESS I'M NOT. SORRY FOR SHOWING MY WEAKNESS HERE. THAT'S ME. YEA, I'VE LOST SOMETHING. OR RATHER, SOMEONE SO IMPT TO ME. SO BRAINY, HANDSOME, WILL MAKE BIG BUCKS ONE DAY. PPL WHO TRUSTS AND LIKE SO MUCH, MAYBE LOVE TOO??? CAUSE EVERYONE TELLS ME THAT HE SAID MANY PPL WANT HIM SO BADLY. IT'S LIKE YOU KNOW, A CRAVING THAT ONLY THAT ONE CAN HAVE?? BEATS ME.. MAYBE AFTERALL HE IS THAT GREAT.


BUT COME ON... WE'RE HUMANS. GOD MADE US AND IT'S NOT FOR US TO ACTUALLY BE IMPERFECT. IT'S THE SIN THAT ADAM AND EVE COMMITTED WHICH LED TILL TODAY. AND IT'S GOING ON AND ON. FUCK. AND YES, HE SEEMS TO THINK THAT HE IS ALWAYS SUPER PERFECT, THE WAY HE TALKS I DO ADMIT. I DO LOOK UP TO HIM IF IM A FRIEND, BUT AS A GF FOR ONCE, FUCKING DAMN YOU. I DON'T. REASON.... IT'S ALL UP THERE. NOT ALL. SOME ARE NOT THERE AS I'VE YET TO FUCKING FINISH IT. I LEARNT ALL THIS FUCKING THIS FROM HIM. FUCK ALL THE WAY LO. NEVER IN MY LIFE DO GUYS OR RATHER BF USE SUCH A WORD AT ME. IF YOU'RE ANGRY I UNDERSTAND I CAN JUST CLOSE ONE EYE. AFTER BREAKING UP, I ANNOUNCE, HE BROKE UP WITH ME. SO I DIDN'T SPOIL HIS EGO. IT'S BEING NICE. AND ALTHOUGH I WANNA TAKE HIM BACK BUT I GUESS THE FEELING WON'T BE THERE, CAUSE HE TOLD ME HE PUT IN A LOT FOR ME. I THINK STILL OK ACTUALLY. WHAT HE DID FOR ME?? DID HE ONCE PUT HIMSELF IN MY SHOES?? MAYBE I'VE YET TO UNDERSTAND HIM THOROUGHLY WHICH MADE ME DARN DUMB TO JUMP INTO A RELATIONSHIP AFTER LIKE SO LONG. CAUSE I ACTUALLY STEREOTYPE GUYS TO THE EXTEND. AND YA. HE PROVED ME SORT OF RIGHT. ALL GUYS WILL STILL REMAIN. AHHH.. SAD. WANT GIRLS. THEN FIND WHOEVER WHO HAS FISH TANKS, EHHH.... INTRO ME GIRLS LEHX. I WANNA KNOW THEM. VERY SAD NOW LA. HELP LA... FUCK YOU LA. FUCKING HELL. AND THAT WAS WHEN WE'VE NOT BROKEN UP. THINK I'M DUMB AH. WANT TO DO STH NASTY OR MAYBE CHEAT. ALSO NOT LIKE THAT. ALSO. ADVISE YOUR BROTHER KY . WANNA CHEAT GIRLS OR THE SO CALLED FUCK BUDDY HE HAD, COME ON, USE STH MUCH BETTER. I TOLD HER THINGS THAT I THINK SHE SHOULD KNOW. CAUSE SHE SERIOUSLY LOVES HIM. AND I'VE ONLY ASKED IF SHE KNEW THAT GIRL IS COMING BACK. GOT PROB?? YOU CAN HELP YOUR BRO. I CAN'T HELP HER LA. I'M STANDING AT THE POINT FOR A GIRL/ WOMEN. THINK OF IT AT THE END OF THE DAY, IF YOU WERE HER, YOU LIKE IT? BEG ME NOT TO TELL, SAYING YOU'RE CONFUSED. FUCK. IF YOU'RE CONFUSED THEN YOU SHOULDNT USE HER AS SOME SPARE TIRE IN THE FIRST PLACE, IF YOU'VE FINISHED TOYING HER THEN CHUCK HER ASIDE, WHY STILL HOLD ON TO HER FOR SO LONG??? AND CAN YOU RESIST THE TEMPTATION??? THE YOUNG PEOPLE WHO ARE SEXUALLY CONNECTED ONCE, OH MY GOSH, DON'T KNOW CONNECTED TO HOW MANY PEOPLE LA. I JUST FIND IT ATROCIOUS. GET STDS FROM THERE. STILL CAN ACCEPT SUCH A PERSON, MAYBE IM BEING OUT DATED. NOT OPENED ENOUGH. HELLO??? I CAN BE. I JUST DONT WANNA BE. DOWNGRADE WOMEN. DOWNGRADE MYSELF, EMBARASS MY PARENTS AT THE END OF THE DAY EVEN IF THEY DON'T EVEN KNOW. AIYA. I DONT KNOW HOW TO EXPLAIN. MY THOUGHTS ARE RUNNING WILD.

AND SO IT'S ALSO BECAUSE OF THIS. 2 BROTHERS CAN GANG UP TO CONCEIVE THEIR FRIEND ( THE GIRL). FOOK YOU 2. SO NICE IS IT? STILL SAY PPL LIKE YOU AND TRUST YOU TO THE CORE. MAYBE THE OTHER GUYS THINK YOU'RE RIGHT LA. CAUSE THOSE ARE PEOPLE WHO LIKES YOU. MY FUCKING GUY FRIENDS WILL JUST KILL ME LA. CAUSE AT THE LEAST THEY'RE REAL GUYS. THEY WILL STILL UDS THAT IT SUCKS LIVING ON EARTH LIKE THAT. BLOODY GO HELL.
YOU CAN SAY I'M IMMATURE. ASK ME TO FUCKING FUCKING GROW UP. 18 ALREADY. YEA. I AM SO CHILDISH, THIS IS HOW I AM. I AM SO SO STUBBORN I THINK I'M ALWAYS RIGHT. AT THE END OF THE DAY IF I'M WRONG I WILL ADMIT IT. HAVE YOU REGRETTED?? MAYBE NOT. CAUSE IT'S MY LOST. I EMPHASISE. I'M A SORE LOSER. I SUCK. PUTTING UP SUCH A POST TO MAKE PPL WORST OFF. CAUSE IM IDIOT PATHETIC. WHATEVER IT IS I DONT CARE WHAT ARE THE COMMENTS. CAUSE I'VE ENOUGH OF MY OWN PROBS TO SOLVE ALREADY. AND IT KILLS ME. I THOUGHT HAVING A R/S WITH YOU WILL BE NICE. BUT SATISFYING ONE'S NEED IS QUITE HARD YOU KNOW. AFTERALL YOU SAID YOU'RE A GUY. IF THE GIRL LOVES HIM WHOLEHEARTEDLY SHE WILL DO ANTH FOR HIM. RIGHT. I DONT THINK SEX=LOVE BTW. YES I KNOW IT DOES. BUT.. WELL, FROM WHAT I HEARD FROM KY, GO FUCK HER LA. THEN SHE WILL LOVE YOU WHOLEHEARTEDLY. DAMN YOU LA KY. IS THAT HOW U SHOWED UR LOVE TO HER??? I DONT EVEN THINK U LOVE HER. U LOVE HER FOR THAT CRINGE OF WANT AND CRAVING. SPLASHING YOUR SPERMS AROUND IN HER BOSOM. FUCK YOU.

NO YOU DON'T. CAUSE U SAID YOU DIDNT. AND THIS IS HOW IT GOES.. THE GIST OF IT. HIS MESSAGE: YOU KNOW YOURSELF WHAT YOU TOLD XXX.... WHAT YOU CALLED ME... (PS: I CALLED HIM A BASTARD ONLY AND DIDN'T SPREAD ANY SHIT ABOUT HIM) OK.. THINGS HAPPEN AND I WILL KNOW. CAUSE PPL LIKE ME AND TRUST ME. IT'S JUST THAT SIMPLE. YOU ONLY MADE YOURSELF LOOKED BAD. ... ZZZ READ ALREADY I WANNA SLEEP. FUCK LA. WHY MUST I DO SUCH A THING. DO I LOOK SO IMMATURE TO YOU? I'VE PASSED THAT STAGE. IDIOT LA. AND WHEN YOU SAID 1.06AM BREAK UP. MAYBE YOU'RE SAD OR DISAPPOINTED, BUT I DON'T THINK YOU DID. CAUSE YOU TOLD ME, IF YOU WANT ME BACK THEN TAKE ME BACK, BUT I WILL DECLARE MYSELF AS SINGLE AND OPEN MYSELF TO MANY OUT THERE. GO LO. SINCE YOU SAID YOU'RE FREAKING POPULAR RIGHT. AND IT'S LIKE SAYING HEY SI'EN YOU'VE LOST MAN, MOVE ON. WHY WANNA CRY OVER SPILT MILK ONE DAY. FUCK LA. MAYBE I'VE DID MANY STUFFS THAT MADE HIM HIT THE LIMIT. OH WELL, HE'S THE ONLY PERSON WHOM I CAN SAY I CAN'T REALLY RELATE EVERY SINGLE PROBLEM TO. CAUSE OF WHAT HE MENTIONED EARLIER ON, MANY STUFFS ACTUALLY. AND IT KEPT RINGING IN MY FUCKING LOUSY BRAIN. IM NOT BEING PATHETIC AND ASKING PPL TO PITY ME. CAUSE LIKE WHAT HE SAID CONTINUE TO LIVE IN THAT PITIFUL WORLD OF YOURS YOU WON'T SUCCEED. HELLO, YOUR LIFE IS SO NICELY BRANCHED OUT. I'M SO DIFF AND I DONT WISH TO EXPLAIN TOO. CAUSE WE'VE CALLED QUITS. I TOLD YOU TO FORGET ME ONCE AND FOR ALL GO LOOK FOR YOUR BETTER CHOICES, YEA WHY I SAID THAT?? CAUSE I'M FREAKING PISSED AT MYSELF AND AT HIM TOO. SINCE I'VE NOT PUT IN ALL SINCE DAY 1. NO I'M WRONG. NOT DAY 1. DONT KNOW FROM WHICH DAY ONWARDS, I FELT THAT I SHOULD ISOLATE FROM HIM, AS WHAT HE SAID OR DO IMPACTED ME LOADS. HMMM.. SO OF COURSE, HE THINKS THAT WAY.. SO HE SAID FORGET ME LO.



AIYA. IM TOO LAZY ALREADY. FUCKING TIRED AFTER WORKING AND STUDYING. I DON'T MIND BEING WORKAHOLIC EARNING THAT PATHETIC MONEY THAT I WILL GET. . CAUSE MY LIFE IS ALREADY FATED. I'M SO PITIFUL AND PATHETIC. I LOVE TO LIVE IN IT. SAYING YOU'VE GONE THRU SHIT. I UDS THOSE SHIT. BUT I GUESS YOU'RE NOT TOTALLY EMOTIONALLY HURT BEFORE. CAUSE IF YOU DO, YOU WILL KNOW HOW I FEEL. TELLING ME STORIES ABOUT YOUR EX. YOU DON'T LIKE ME TALKING ABOUT THEM, YOU AUTO CAN TELL ME ANYTIME. AND LOVES COMPARING ME WITH THEM OR ANY GIRLS IN YOUR LIFE. SINCE WHEN I COMPARED YOU?? FUCK. I HATE PPL COMPARING ME AND YEA I'M NOT HOT LA, NOT SEXY, DON'T HAVE NICE BODY OR WHATEVER CAN'T SATISFY YOUR NEEDS. FIND SOME HOT BABE LA. THOUGHT YOU WANNA KNOW MANY SUPER HOT GIRLS. NO ONE CAN STOP YOU.
YOU DON'T LIKE GIRLS CHEATING ON YOU. I WON'T CAUSE IT SUCKS LA. LIVE SUCH A STUPID LIFE. FLING YOUR HEAD. INSULT ME AS SOMEONE WHO WANNA FLING. THINK OF IT.

I WAS HURT DEEPLY. I COULDN'T SLEEP PROPERLY AT NIGHT. SUPER STRESSED BY IT. BUT I STILL THINK IM ALRIGHT. HE THINKS I HURT HIM A LOT. AND I ALSO THOUGHT SO. I TOLD MYSELF HE HAS NEVER EVER HURT ME BEFORE. I DONT EVEN KNOW, CAUSE I DONT KNOW WHAT KIND OF HURT HE HAS INFLICTED IN ME.


I SHALL CONTINUE AGAIN ONCE I'VE SORTED OUT MY THOUGHTS.

I'M FUCKING TIRED AND CONFUSED. MOREVER, I CAN'T THINK ANYMORE. I CAN STILL TALK TO MY GF LAUGHING LIKE MAD. AS IF NOTHING HAS EVER HAPPENED. JUST THAT I MYSELF AND THEY THINK THAT I AM SUPER DUPER HYPERACTIVE. I CAN TALK WITH ENERGY ALTHOUGH IM ALREADY SO SOUR.....



GOOD NIGHT. SHALL RANT AGAIN. CAUSE I'M NOT SLEEPING..



GOING TO SWETTENHAM ROAD TMR. BIG HOUSE, CARS AND WINES. WAOH. I LURVE IT. SURPRISINGLY I DIDNT DRINK THIS TIME. MOST OF THE TIME I WILL.. I SHALL KEEP MY BODY SHAPE BETTER. CAUSE IT'S ALREADY BAD ENOUGH. IN CASE ONE DAY HE GO AROUND TELLING HIS FRIENDS, EH SHE'S ACTUALLY LIKE THAT ONE LA. NO KICK LA. AIYA. NO ONE WANTS. YOU WANT AH. 50CENTS CAN BUY HER. FUCK YOU.



MY GOOD IMPRESSION OF YOU HAS GONE DOWN THE DRAIN. AND I THINK SUPER HIGHLY OF YOU. MANY PPL CALCULATED HOW CLOSE WE CAN BE TOGETHER. I THINK IT'S THE REVERSE NOW. THE CALCULATIONS ARE ALL ZZZZZZZZ. WRONG.

AND I DO RESPECT YOU ALL THE TIME. DID YOU?? QUESTION YOURSELF.


PPL DO FALL ONE DAY. AND I'VE REALISED MY MISTAKES ALREADY. DO PROMPT ME IF I'VE STATED ANTH THAT'S NOT FACTUAL OR ACCURATE AT THE POINT OF TIME.

YOU CAN SAY I MIA FOR LONG AND DON'T CARE. BUT I DO ALL THE TIME. JUST THAT THOSE WORDS AND INCIDENTS PLAYED A BIG PART IN ME ALREADY.

GOODBYE.