freaking pissed for the whole of today. instead of meeting him or my friend such that i can sort things out properly, i went home straight after work. and so. yea, my previous post is up there. And the reason why i dont wanna meet him ytd to sort things out was:
The kind of message he replied back was insincere. Excerpt from it: this is what he sad: i told you, if you wantedme back, i would take you back but see how long later....
After reading the whole message, i was like fucking hell. treat me like that. sounds as if i'm just some shui bian girl lo. like what his brother is doing. want girl A then dont want her. then want his old flame. idiot la. and from my friend X, X said he's just acting. Was furious so i told him not to meet then since i've already known the answer. So it's like no point of me telling him how i feel. So i post it here. at least i do feel better in a way or another, but, at the end of the day, i am still hurt. darn it.
just kangyang said it takes loads of anger and courage to post it out.. zzzz. maybe. i know it's not my usual self. cause the impression I give to the people around me are - normal, sweet, innocent. hahas. so funny. do i look like one? i think this is for normal people. the rest are like. i shall not comment further. think i'm some sleazy person. F*** off la. And to the few people out there. Just stop bugging me about jumping into another relationship already. I will not go into anyone anymore. I've not even solved my own problems and yet you guys came in. Stop bothering me. It's like freaking mad at them. bug and bug non-stop. the 3 words. I LOVE YOU. woah. so easily said. That's what all guys are good at it. Which is why, I don't say these words that easily. To say and mean it from the bottom of one's heart is the way. You think it's like plain water?? say it whenever you want? super despo.
besides that point. The feeling which I described to KangYang was I do love him, but at the same time, I do hate it. it's so screwed up. zzzz. I am really tired and right now i'm just waiting for his message. He can choose to reply me or not. The other time he also didnt cause of some reason. And i know why he's like that. Let your imagination run wild. Cause it's totally hidden meanings. hard to explain too.
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C R U S H
by David Archuleta
I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time deep inside
It was a rush, what a rush
'Cause the possibility
That you would ever feel the same way about me
It's just too much, just too much
Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I've just got to know
Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?
Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Has it ever crossed your mind
When we're hanging, spending time girl, are we just friends?
Is there more, is there more?
See it's a chance we've gotta take
'Cause I believe that we can make this into something that will last
Last forever, forever
Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?
Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I've just got to know
Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?
Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
This crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
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