C R U S H
by David Archuleta
I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time deep inside
It was a rush, what a rush
'Cause the possibility
That you would ever feel the same way about me
It's just too much, just too much
Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I've just got to know
Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?
Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Has it ever crossed your mind
When we're hanging, spending time girl, are we just friends?
Is there more, is there more?
See it's a chance we've gotta take
'Cause I believe that we can make this into something that will last
Last forever, forever
Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?
Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I've just got to know
Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?
Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
This crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
P R O F I L E
me myself and i :D
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A pianist and cellist
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Once an Acs-ian ( arts and science student) should say a mix of both
Ex ACCO cellist.
Loves her Cliques - the LMAOs(consisting for 2 NJ, 3 AC, 1 NYJ & 1 PJ)
The ACCO people
Class of TF04 in NP
Bestie - Joson
Fader turned Sand - Jackson
Girl that's always there - AnLi
and basically anyone who's always there or secretly there for me.
10:13 pm - Monday, May 05, 2008
SIGHS.. I do really have a confused life. I am confused myself too.. Living in a confusing world. Oh my. I felt like contacting him and not to.. I'm in a like dumb witted situation. I don't know how and what I'm feeling now. Although he did contact me but was unavailable since my friends told me not to bother him. My heart was like telling me to answer or reply his messages. But on the other side of my subconscious mind, it told me that I shouldn't be doing so. I guess it's because of the influence of my friends?
My Ex talked to me on msn. Was a random one. We rarely even contact.
This was how it went.
Sherman says : ": hello
Sherman says : ": sick?
MONSTER IS SICK.: yes
MONSTER IS SICK.: *heartbroken
Sherman says : ": how come?
MONSTER IS SICK.: i felt as if i was betrayed by 3 ppl
Sherman says : ": wow
MONSTER IS SICK.: and i dont know what
Sherman says : ": linked story or seperate?
MONSTER IS SICK.: is the reason why he wants me back
Sherman says : ": hmm in what sense?
MONSTER IS SICK.: like after so many that happened
MONSTER IS SICK.: when i didnt even mention that
MONSTER IS SICK.: and he said we will just end like that
MONSTER IS SICK.: but now he wants me back
MONSTER IS SICK.: tt's really weird
Sherman says : ": okay
Sherman says : ": get back to him lor
Sherman says : ": if you still feel for him
MONSTER IS SICK.: sighs
MONSTER IS SICK.: so i dont know now
MONSTER IS SICK.: my friends told me not to reply him
MONSTER IS SICK.: or ans his calls/msgs
Sherman says : ": okay i'm asking you to ask yourself what you wanna do
Sherman says : ": if your friends asks you to jump down the building you gonna do that?
MONSTER IS SICK.: no
MONSTER IS SICK.: for that i wont
that's the end of the conversation. yea. well. I'm also in a lost now. It's really in a lost.
Anyway, thank you for those who cared so much about me recently.
My dearest and beloved senior: I know you're worried bout me recently. I didn't call you back too last night. Sorry my dear. I tried calling you today, but I think you're really busy at work. Don't OT too much. Bad for your health.
Somebody tell what I should do now?? I shall tell you how I feel: I love him. And it's true.
So what should i do next??
Tearing apart but numbing myself at the same time...At the end of everything, even whatever friend A has told me, he told me that no one can be trusted at this point of time. My friend heard that too. That was the very last time I contacted him. He did say many stuffs which made me pondered hard. Well, everyone's not reliable now. Get my sources right first, before coming to conclusions. I shall not make any assumptions. Ever since that heart to heart talk, or maybe after trying to sort of numb myself, I didn't really think about the whole incident again. It turn come into my mind, but it's an on and off kind. Well, friend A also told me at the very end, just follow your heart, if you think whatever I said was untrue, or I have any motives, you can think in that manner. Friend A said I can don't trust him, which made the previous lines quite true. A little bit of complication here and there. But... my friend said, this can be solved but it depends on yourself and the consequences of it.
Shall think about my BCOMM presentation now. I did mine wrongly. Tried to practice my speech, I couldn't talk. !!!!!!!! I'm so gonna be dead tmr.