Actually, I do think that I'm subconsciously suffering from depression already. Am I not?
I guess only you will believe.
Who else will?
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C R U S H
by David Archuleta
I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time deep inside
It was a rush, what a rush
'Cause the possibility
That you would ever feel the same way about me
It's just too much, just too much
Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I've just got to know
Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?
Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Has it ever crossed your mind
When we're hanging, spending time girl, are we just friends?
Is there more, is there more?
See it's a chance we've gotta take
'Cause I believe that we can make this into something that will last
Last forever, forever
Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?
Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I've just got to know
Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?
Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
This crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
CRUSH!!!
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Ex ACCO cellist. Loves her Cliques - the LMAOs(consisting for 2 NJ, 3 AC, 1 NYJ & 1 PJ)
The ACCO people
Class of TF04 in NP
Bestie - Joson
Fader turned Sand - Jackson
Girl that's always there - AnLi
and basically anyone who's always there or secretly there for me.
F I F T E E N
RANDOM FACTS
RANDOM FACTS
well, i am 18 years old, aren't i?
SPARKS OF EVIL..
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11:57 pm - Wednesday, July 30, 2008
11:52 pm - Tuesday, July 29, 2008
I'm suffering from high levels of stress i guess. I've been hallucinating bout some weird stuffs. Maybe I can predict what's gonna happen? No, of course I can't. I think that depression may set in any time for me again. Bloody shit.
Note: Do not aggravate or agitate me at any point of time from now onwards. I will not be able to handle it. And I mean it. I may be silent about it, but don't doubt the after effects. Thanks.
Note: Do not aggravate or agitate me at any point of time from now onwards. I will not be able to handle it. And I mean it. I may be silent about it, but don't doubt the after effects. Thanks.
11:48 pm - Saturday, July 26, 2008
After a short short day or rather, within a few hours... I've came to realize that, life is unpredictable and there's someone watching over you. The Dark Knight. I wonder, sometimes, I wonder so... And so much of it. All the queries that I have, only 20% of it will be answered. Whilst the rest, there's a great urge for me to figure and explore. Somehow, it is seriously hard to do so.
Sources may not be true and you may not have them.
I wonder.
The more we get together, together, together, the more we get ...... the happier we'll be?
I saw that on Javier's MSN Nickname. I do wonder too. Getting too close, sparks would lead to a small fire, and eventually a massive one.
to be continued...
Sources may not be true and you may not have them.
I wonder.
The more we get together, together, together, the more we get ...... the happier we'll be?
I saw that on Javier's MSN Nickname. I do wonder too. Getting too close, sparks would lead to a small fire, and eventually a massive one.
to be continued...
12:23 am - Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Many things are going on.
It's also a time for reflection.
Although it's seriously wrong as there're projects and final semesters' exams, but I feel that there is a need to. At least, to a small extent. Shall continue again after the 21Aug.
Here are some random pictures.
The choc given to me by my best special friend, I ate the last one today, which is the 23/07. It has passed the expiry date which is on the 18/07. Don't worry, it won't kill me. heh.
By the way, both the chocs expired. One is from Melbourne and the other from Singapore but imported from some foreign country?
I shall work on my remaining presentations to be done and get over with it. Wish me luck, and bless my health and my throat - voice. I need them to help me ace.
Shall de-stress a little. Am having a freaking outbreak, damn pimples around now, it's freaking huge and annoying. Defamed my image. DAMN you hormones.
Here they go...
Am eating the chocs and drinking sugarcane juice.
Bouchee! Dear friend, I just ate it.
That's what friends are for!! Ah li!
Nissan - FairLadyZ: It is seen at Crystal's house on sat.
Freaking big house with freaking nice assets!!!
ENVIOUS!!!
The Do & Me burger at bukit gombak.
It's just a 3 min walk from my house. 1min if you run.
Superbly delicious!
Wanna grab a bite now?
It's also a time for reflection.
Although it's seriously wrong as there're projects and final semesters' exams, but I feel that there is a need to. At least, to a small extent. Shall continue again after the 21Aug.
Here are some random pictures.
The choc given to me by my best special friend, I ate the last one today, which is the 23/07. It has passed the expiry date which is on the 18/07. Don't worry, it won't kill me. heh.
By the way, both the chocs expired. One is from Melbourne and the other from Singapore but imported from some foreign country?
I shall work on my remaining presentations to be done and get over with it. Wish me luck, and bless my health and my throat - voice. I need them to help me ace.
Shall de-stress a little. Am having a freaking outbreak, damn pimples around now, it's freaking huge and annoying. Defamed my image. DAMN you hormones.
Here they go...
Am eating the chocs and drinking sugarcane juice.
Bouchee! Dear friend, I just ate it.
That's what friends are for!! Ah li!
Nissan - FairLadyZ: It is seen at Crystal's house on sat.
Freaking big house with freaking nice assets!!!
ENVIOUS!!!
The Do & Me burger at bukit gombak.
It's just a 3 min walk from my house. 1min if you run.
Superbly delicious!
Wanna grab a bite now?
12:39 am - Sunday, July 20, 2008
BATMAN - THE DARK KNIGHT
It's really cool. I can watch it again, if time persists. hehs!
The storyline is amazing and the new character - Joker, he acted it really well.
At the end of it, Christian Bale as Batman is still the best character that I've seen. Comparing to those of the other Batman series being shown in the past.
Graphics, stunts and the vehicles used is definitely great.
With my favourite Lamborghini.
I will give it 4.5 cookies! =D
Fortunately, with the tickets being bought through AXS, we got the tickets like a few hours in advance. The crowd for the movie is like humongous. Ever since Wednesday, all theatres are being booked entirely or just left with really bad seats. We managed or rather He manged to get the ones just right in the centre-middle. YEA! Even for GV - Tiong Bahru, it's filled up. So, do not belittle cinemaxes like around the heartlands or think that they wouldn't be as popular.
Thanks to my super good friend - Jackson. Thanks for everything and ya everything.
I owe you a real good treat.
The night festival is pretty awesome, from what I've seen in the news. I will want to catch it like sometime next weekend, since it will be opened till then. So yea, I shall see if I can. Time is running short for me, with make-ups to be done. Gosh! If not, I wouldn't be that tied down. At least, I did get a sort of short break from the movie. I knew it would be sort of the last before everything starts for me again.
I'm still in the midst of recovering from being sick for 2 weeks. I hope I seriously get well soon. And I mean soon! Hopefully, tomorrow, but that will never happen. Weakling is still in me.
Last of all, it's something that I do not know and I would really want to know. However, it is not the right time to sort out or find out. My final semester exams are really drawing near and I wouldn't want to be affected in either ways. So... I shall continue to occupy myself with just projects and preparations which I should.
I know that I have to change the way I handle and deal with my problems. But, I do not have sufficient time to heal and start afresh again. That's because, I'm someone who is never good at words, never fair to myself and I just want the best out of and for the other party/anyone. Spur me on and I will endure this battle. Thank you Lihui and also whoever who've tried to help. And they are always dear and near to me. You're always in my heart. =D See you soon girl.
Left with a part of CATS project and the others! BLoddy shit.
I'm super stressed out with many things on hand. Well, take a deep breath!
Off I go!
1:33 am - Friday, July 18, 2008
BLODDY HELL!!!!
I think this is the area for me to seriously vent!
I'm seriously sick, and I'm staying up late every now and then just to do freaking projects.
Only 2 of us doing. No 4 of us. But somehow, it became 2. DAMN it. It's always project that makes me stay up till late.
So now, I'm freaking sick. I'm already freaking weak. And hell, it made me worst. I'm gonna see how I'm gonna survive for my coming tests and presentations that weigh super high in percentage. DAMN la.
I can speak, but with the bloody throat and fever all over, aches and whatsoever, it kills me!
good night.
not yet. night is still bloddy hell young!!!
Comments: !@#$%
I think this is the area for me to seriously vent!
I'm seriously sick, and I'm staying up late every now and then just to do freaking projects.
Only 2 of us doing. No 4 of us. But somehow, it became 2. DAMN it. It's always project that makes me stay up till late.
So now, I'm freaking sick. I'm already freaking weak. And hell, it made me worst. I'm gonna see how I'm gonna survive for my coming tests and presentations that weigh super high in percentage. DAMN la.
I can speak, but with the bloody throat and fever all over, aches and whatsoever, it kills me!
good night.
not yet. night is still bloddy hell young!!!
Comments: !@#$%
11:06 pm - Wednesday, July 16, 2008
Didn't go to school again today. and I'm feeling bad again. It's like WTH!!
Can that damn bug get off me?
Jackson came to meet me today, all the way from Changi T3. This shows that Do and Me at my area Bukit Gombak is really attractive. Sadly, I can't eat it till like next month or till I totally recover. I'm really stressed up, and all I can say is there's too many stuffs for me to think and worry about. Sighs. I shall loosen up a bit dude. Thanks for the concern.You should too. Your stress level is like much higher. Will start mugging at T3 in time to come.
I will also learn to swim if possible and go to tioman. !!!!!!!
Bloody cinemas, all of them are being booked or filled up for the movie -
Batman: The Dark Knight. Ahhh!!! No slots. Shall see how it goes by tmr. It's one of the movies for this year that I really wanna watch.
Too many things to worry and too many stuffs to forget.
DANG.
A sick puppy needs to rest and be cared for.
Was told that I'm selfish in a manner 2 nights ago, not only that, creating false pity. Somehow, I know I'm portraying someone which is not me - Si'En.
I do know that and heeding your advice, I will have to learn to grow much stronger. Life's always unfair and changing for the people around you isn't that great. I shall find the old me - which many of you really want me to be.
I will try my best.
I'm glad that you're always there for me no matter what. Seriously 24/7, I owe like a dozen to you. Somehow....
THANKS!
SIOL!
I wonder why I have to bear all these but at the same time, being locked somewhere in between.
Can that damn bug get off me?
Jackson came to meet me today, all the way from Changi T3. This shows that Do and Me at my area Bukit Gombak is really attractive. Sadly, I can't eat it till like next month or till I totally recover. I'm really stressed up, and all I can say is there's too many stuffs for me to think and worry about. Sighs. I shall loosen up a bit dude. Thanks for the concern.You should too. Your stress level is like much higher. Will start mugging at T3 in time to come.
I will also learn to swim if possible and go to tioman. !!!!!!!
Bloody cinemas, all of them are being booked or filled up for the movie -
Batman: The Dark Knight. Ahhh!!! No slots. Shall see how it goes by tmr. It's one of the movies for this year that I really wanna watch.
Too many things to worry and too many stuffs to forget.
DANG.
A sick puppy needs to rest and be cared for.
Was told that I'm selfish in a manner 2 nights ago, not only that, creating false pity. Somehow, I know I'm portraying someone which is not me - Si'En.
I do know that and heeding your advice, I will have to learn to grow much stronger. Life's always unfair and changing for the people around you isn't that great. I shall find the old me - which many of you really want me to be.
I will try my best.
I'm glad that you're always there for me no matter what. Seriously 24/7, I owe like a dozen to you. Somehow....
THANKS!
SIOL!
I wonder why I have to bear all these but at the same time, being locked somewhere in between.
2:15 am - Monday, July 14, 2008
EMO-ING but am so much better!!!
THANKS DUDE!!
My bad points are noted and it's like adding on to those that I do not know.
Great.
Shall put off the old me and put on the real mask.
THANKS DUDE!!
My bad points are noted and it's like adding on to those that I do not know.
Great.
Shall put off the old me and put on the real mask.
12:49 am - Saturday, July 12, 2008
Current Status: High body temperature of 38.7 degrees celcius.
Current Mood: Bloody irritated and pissed. Am exhausted because I'm freaking sick, but somehow, I have loads of hormones raging in me keeping me super energized.
Conclusion: Signs of hyper activeness which leads to me not being able to sleep for about 2 days. Will not recover so soon. It happens once again.
Current stress level: HIGH! With many bloody projects and people who can take me for granted. Almost everyone. DAMN all of you.
About my day on Friday the 11th of July: Woke up super early so as to wake my good friend and some other. Wanted to wake up to finish my projects which kicks up to about 6 of them. But I couldn't. Idiotic fever and body aches all over. Rested for more and then headed to school. Had CATS which is still ok. But super duper cold. Then headed for SW:Hip Hop. Didn't attend the class as there's problem with the Audio system and so Justis said anyone can leave if they want to. As I couldn't even jump or move easily with the muscle and joint aches, I then headed down to Canteen 1, was being interviewed by some Yr 3 BS student for her project . Then, headed to the library to past my time while waiting for my mum. Was shivering under the sun, what more in the library. Friends thought I was faking to be sick. Because I don't really look sick. But could tell that I had difficulty talking and my face shows a little right?
Fast foward, then met up with my good friends - the swiss people or the monsters or whatever it is. I LOVE YOU GIRLS. It's glad that we met up again, although it's supposed to be a mini belated celebration for me. Was sick but am glad to see them. Can take my thoughts and attention away too. Came home, so I'm worst, as I'm exposed to diff kinds of temp out there. Bloody shit.
With family problem shortly after. What's wrong with me being the eldest daughter? Don't appreciate me? Younger sis fighting with my mum. Damn you la. Show some respect. If you're that capable then get lost. Things don't get the way you want. Like how we are all fated to be in. I tell you, Mum's lifespan will shorten even more ok!!! At the rate you're driving her crazy, I won't be able to stay with you guys too. I don't wanna see myself crying pathetically at her grave someday. I won't be able to support the family alright! I'm mentally unstable and so please stop giving me nonsense. I wonder why you're brought to earth. Do you know I'm trying so hard to make lives better for all of us, the family? I can neglect my health, my studies, so damn it, get your ass off and pass your exams. I don't mind sending you guys off and not myself.
DAMN.
FEELING SHIT.
Thanks for those who cared about me. Telling me to rest and relax. I appreciate the concerns you guys had for me.
I think I should chill on my own and just freeze from then on.
Current Mood: Bloody irritated and pissed. Am exhausted because I'm freaking sick, but somehow, I have loads of hormones raging in me keeping me super energized.
Conclusion: Signs of hyper activeness which leads to me not being able to sleep for about 2 days. Will not recover so soon. It happens once again.
Current stress level: HIGH! With many bloody projects and people who can take me for granted. Almost everyone. DAMN all of you.
About my day on Friday the 11th of July: Woke up super early so as to wake my good friend and some other. Wanted to wake up to finish my projects which kicks up to about 6 of them. But I couldn't. Idiotic fever and body aches all over. Rested for more and then headed to school. Had CATS which is still ok. But super duper cold. Then headed for SW:Hip Hop. Didn't attend the class as there's problem with the Audio system and so Justis said anyone can leave if they want to. As I couldn't even jump or move easily with the muscle and joint aches, I then headed down to Canteen 1, was being interviewed by some Yr 3 BS student for her project . Then, headed to the library to past my time while waiting for my mum. Was shivering under the sun, what more in the library. Friends thought I was faking to be sick. Because I don't really look sick. But could tell that I had difficulty talking and my face shows a little right?
Fast foward, then met up with my good friends - the swiss people or the monsters or whatever it is. I LOVE YOU GIRLS. It's glad that we met up again, although it's supposed to be a mini belated celebration for me. Was sick but am glad to see them. Can take my thoughts and attention away too. Came home, so I'm worst, as I'm exposed to diff kinds of temp out there. Bloody shit.
With family problem shortly after. What's wrong with me being the eldest daughter? Don't appreciate me? Younger sis fighting with my mum. Damn you la. Show some respect. If you're that capable then get lost. Things don't get the way you want. Like how we are all fated to be in. I tell you, Mum's lifespan will shorten even more ok!!! At the rate you're driving her crazy, I won't be able to stay with you guys too. I don't wanna see myself crying pathetically at her grave someday. I won't be able to support the family alright! I'm mentally unstable and so please stop giving me nonsense. I wonder why you're brought to earth. Do you know I'm trying so hard to make lives better for all of us, the family? I can neglect my health, my studies, so damn it, get your ass off and pass your exams. I don't mind sending you guys off and not myself.
DAMN.
FEELING SHIT.
Thanks for those who cared about me. Telling me to rest and relax. I appreciate the concerns you guys had for me.
I think I should chill on my own and just freeze from then on.
1:11 am - Friday, July 11, 2008
I'm not being emo. -.-. I am human too and so I gotta express my feelings like somehow in a manner. I'm down with flu, high fever, shivers, etc. Amazingly, I can still be somewhat normal. Woah. Although I did skip lectures such as to get more rest. I slept like the whole of Wed evening till 10 plus. And for today, it's because of PED - Poly experience day, so I made myself not look sick. Damn. I forgot to take panadol in the morning. And with a bad throat and fever, not drinking much water for the day too, I endured PED and the emcee-ing for the full house lecture theatre. It was rather ok, but my voice was soft with the microphone. Reason: BAD THROAT! Saw some of my juniors and the event ended at 6.30pm. Was raining, it's a good weather, but wrong time, I'm sick. Feeling warm and cold at the same time. Bloody shit. With so many projects at hand and assignments, sometimes I wonder why am I putting in so much effort but getting the same as the rest. Super idiotic. Will start mugging for the coming semester exams already. I'm lagging a lot behind because I can't listen or was daydreaming all the time. Blame it on short attention span. Shall start like really soon. It's less than a month away. To also meet my GPA expectations. I think I'll just faint. Having the same effect as I did way back. How do I control? I'm like feeling shit and in deep shit.
Heard from Anli and I hope you're doing fine. Was glad that we conferenced via MSN. =D. Afterall, it's not that bad. It's only the 1st day you're there. So chill and get yourself settled slowly. Take some time yea?
Am I pms-ing? Or am I not? But I do know that I'm not. Cause I rarely do.
Sighs. I shall not think about it then. Saying goodbye will be a sooner a later kind of thing. I'm responsible for myself and to think if it's worth. Maybe, I'm somehow blinded in a way. I shall stop being nice to people around me or myself. Time for a change.
A Change.
Heard from Anli and I hope you're doing fine. Was glad that we conferenced via MSN. =D. Afterall, it's not that bad. It's only the 1st day you're there. So chill and get yourself settled slowly. Take some time yea?
Am I pms-ing? Or am I not? But I do know that I'm not. Cause I rarely do.
Sighs. I shall not think about it then. Saying goodbye will be a sooner a later kind of thing. I'm responsible for myself and to think if it's worth. Maybe, I'm somehow blinded in a way. I shall stop being nice to people around me or myself. Time for a change.
A Change.
12:44 am - Wednesday, July 09, 2008
As expected, it remained the same. or rather, it became worst. heck then.
I shall not let my feelings rule me out and pull me down.
Maybe it's time.
Goodbye.
I shall not let my feelings rule me out and pull me down.
Maybe it's time.
Goodbye.
11:52 pm - Tuesday, July 08, 2008
My bestie, Mr Joson, said that I didn't update my blog. !!!!!!. I should just put 2 of this !!.
I think you're mad. At least, I'm much a frequent blogger as compared to you. It's only recently that you blogged because of the hacker. lols. What a wonderful experience. I seriously think you have split personality although you claimed it's proven wrong. Weird things have been happening to you like what you've said. oh well, yes! THANKS A LOT buddy!!! I like the present. Since you said it's cute and proven by your friend, bought it and gave me! wonderful. I shall use it to write wonderful stuffs. Maybe draw your face or sth when we're mugging. You shall start mugging real hard and I shall too! Remembered what Anli said before she left?
Dedication to my dearest senior: I will miss you a lot, definitely. We will all support you mentally over here in Singapore. Hope you have fun there in a totally new environment. At least i teared when you finally checked in. I tried to control myself. heh heh. Amazingly. The few times you have already made me wanna breakdown because of the sudden notice to leave. Well, best of luck. Tag me or leave an offline message to me when you reached adelaide? Or a snail mail will do too. =D hear from you soon.
and yes, had Cello/bass section dinner with lao shi ( Mr Qu Feng). Almost everyone turned up. Lao shi is just as philisophical as per normal. He asked how's everyone. And was quite worried bout Anli. Not really worried but somehow. He said that she's strong, but Anli defers. hmmm. It is correct to some sense. Ok, when it came to me, he asked in chinese, " Ni zui jing guo de zhen me yang?" In simple translation, how am i recently? He said that I looked so stressed, like someone bullied me, had many problems and I'm stucked within that dark circle. Sighs. He's right. I just told him that I'm seriously stressed recently bout school work - projects and all. And I have many problems at hand too. He thought some guy bullied me or something. I told him nahx. But hiding my feelings, I just swept my worries across for that moment. I don't wanna think of how I feel now. Sometimes, breaking down is just a release for me. I hope it really does.
Ok, shall go back to doing my 4 projects. Bloody stressful. Shall not bother bout other stuffs till my exams are over. I'm so way back back back and behind.
Please turn back time for me.
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I think you're mad. At least, I'm much a frequent blogger as compared to you. It's only recently that you blogged because of the hacker. lols. What a wonderful experience. I seriously think you have split personality although you claimed it's proven wrong. Weird things have been happening to you like what you've said. oh well, yes! THANKS A LOT buddy!!! I like the present. Since you said it's cute and proven by your friend, bought it and gave me! wonderful. I shall use it to write wonderful stuffs. Maybe draw your face or sth when we're mugging. You shall start mugging real hard and I shall too! Remembered what Anli said before she left?
Dedication to my dearest senior: I will miss you a lot, definitely. We will all support you mentally over here in Singapore. Hope you have fun there in a totally new environment. At least i teared when you finally checked in. I tried to control myself. heh heh. Amazingly. The few times you have already made me wanna breakdown because of the sudden notice to leave. Well, best of luck. Tag me or leave an offline message to me when you reached adelaide? Or a snail mail will do too. =D hear from you soon.
and yes, had Cello/bass section dinner with lao shi ( Mr Qu Feng). Almost everyone turned up. Lao shi is just as philisophical as per normal. He asked how's everyone. And was quite worried bout Anli. Not really worried but somehow. He said that she's strong, but Anli defers. hmmm. It is correct to some sense. Ok, when it came to me, he asked in chinese, " Ni zui jing guo de zhen me yang?" In simple translation, how am i recently? He said that I looked so stressed, like someone bullied me, had many problems and I'm stucked within that dark circle. Sighs. He's right. I just told him that I'm seriously stressed recently bout school work - projects and all. And I have many problems at hand too. He thought some guy bullied me or something. I told him nahx. But hiding my feelings, I just swept my worries across for that moment. I don't wanna think of how I feel now. Sometimes, breaking down is just a release for me. I hope it really does.
Ok, shall go back to doing my 4 projects. Bloody stressful. Shall not bother bout other stuffs till my exams are over. I'm so way back back back and behind.
Please turn back time for me.
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
2:46 pm - Sunday, July 06, 2008
Many upcoming and on-going projects. It's killing me.
Plus I'm also working now. Super tedious kind of job.
I'm feeling stressed yet not so stressed. Sad but happy too.
I'm going gaga, mentally insane.
By the way, not mentally horny ok. Bonkers has loads of meanings to it. So choose one.
BTT will be on the 2nd of Sept at 1400hours. It's 2 months after my birthday. It took me like an hour just to register for this date. DANG.
Trying to mug, but it seems really hard. Have been skipping lectures too. At least, I think it's not as bad as how I did ever since sec 4 to JC 1.
I shall prove that I am capable in a way. Right now, I am incapable of anything. I've failed myself and many around me.
All I can say - I'm sorry for whatever that has happened.
All the luck to be on me.
My 18th year seems to be a happening year, but somehow, it is happening in both ways, the good and the bad.
Random Note: Thanks to everyone who had wished me on my birthday. It's the thought of remembering that I exist on earth. heh heh. Although, I didn't really spend my birthday as of usual but I am satisfied at the very least.
4th July, Thanks to Michael for the yoghurt cake too. It's really yummy, but had to finish the cake outside the class. My CATS teacher only said woah, it's nice but you had to eat outside. How sad right?
Plus I'm also working now. Super tedious kind of job.
I'm feeling stressed yet not so stressed. Sad but happy too.
I'm going gaga, mentally insane.
By the way, not mentally horny ok. Bonkers has loads of meanings to it. So choose one.
BTT will be on the 2nd of Sept at 1400hours. It's 2 months after my birthday. It took me like an hour just to register for this date. DANG.
Trying to mug, but it seems really hard. Have been skipping lectures too. At least, I think it's not as bad as how I did ever since sec 4 to JC 1.
I shall prove that I am capable in a way. Right now, I am incapable of anything. I've failed myself and many around me.
All I can say - I'm sorry for whatever that has happened.
All the luck to be on me.
My 18th year seems to be a happening year, but somehow, it is happening in both ways, the good and the bad.
Random Note: Thanks to everyone who had wished me on my birthday. It's the thought of remembering that I exist on earth. heh heh. Although, I didn't really spend my birthday as of usual but I am satisfied at the very least.
4th July, Thanks to Michael for the yoghurt cake too. It's really yummy, but had to finish the cake outside the class. My CATS teacher only said woah, it's nice but you had to eat outside. How sad right?
11:59 pm - Wednesday, July 02, 2008
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOO =D
THESE ARE SOME OF THE STUFFS THAT MY BESTEST FRIENDS HAS DONE FOR ME!!!!
DONE BY: YEO LI HUI =D=D
LOVE YOU LOADS
NEXT IT'S MY MONSTER
And yes i am posting this approximately 12 hours earlier because my mom'd kill me if i stay up till midnight (i'm sick you see)
ONLY NOTICED IT WHEN AH LI TOLD ME TO READ. HAVEN'T BEEN READING BLOGS RECENTLY AND ESP FOR TODAY. TOO BUSY.
THANKS JACKSON FOR THE LOVELY DRESS TOO. IT FIT AND IT'S REALLY WONDERFUL. HAHAS HOPED YOU LIKED THE DO & ME. SUPER DELICIOUS!!
AND I'M TOO LAZY TO UPDATE. SHALL UPDATE AGAIN.
THESE ARE SOME OF THE STUFFS THAT MY BESTEST FRIENDS HAS DONE FOR ME!!!!
DONE BY: YEO LI HUI =D=D
LOVE YOU LOADS
NEXT IT'S MY MONSTER
11:49 AM, Tuesday, July 01, 2008
To Frenemy Cheng Si'en, with all my heart
HAPPY BIRTHDAY WOMAN.
You know I'll be there spiritually
Love always
the great, cool and nice Jasmine
And yes i am posting this approximately 12 hours earlier because my mom'd kill me if i stay up till midnight (i'm sick you see)
ONLY NOTICED IT WHEN AH LI TOLD ME TO READ. HAVEN'T BEEN READING BLOGS RECENTLY AND ESP FOR TODAY. TOO BUSY.
THANKS JACKSON FOR THE LOVELY DRESS TOO. IT FIT AND IT'S REALLY WONDERFUL. HAHAS HOPED YOU LIKED THE DO & ME. SUPER DELICIOUS!!
AND I'M TOO LAZY TO UPDATE. SHALL UPDATE AGAIN.
1:42 am - Tuesday, July 01, 2008
It's 1st of July already. Shall round up for the month of June.
June - not that interesting.
But the movies I've watched are -
1. Wanted
2. The Incredible Hulk
3. You don't mess with the Zohan
4. Kung Fu Panda
That's all. Missed out a few though. But I've downloaded some. Quite bad but who cares? Everyone is doing so too.
It's not pretty bad. Shall say I should have made full use of it first as July and August is doomsday for me. AHHHH!!!
Well, have decided for SG Flyer. Couldn't make up my mind due to some considerations. Rather, some people psycho me for both. Which left a fickle-minded girl like me unsure. Anw, thanks for preparing your supposedly surprise for me like 2 months in advance. I appreciate that. =D Besides that, I also apologize for you in getting the wrong stuffs, made me feel so bad that you gotta discard or somehow find a solution to it. But you said discard. ZZZZ. Waste of Money you know! $$$$. So you and your funny ideas is really coming up. Saying I shouldn't faint when I see your present. Kaoz. Before I get any surprise, you said all these stuffs. Nice one. Ask the plushy to prepare the Rainbow, I bet IT can do so.
ITB makes me crazy and it still does right now. Headache.
Gonna start work tomorrow after school, shall chiong already.
The day of evil is coming. heh heh.
June - not that interesting.
But the movies I've watched are -
1. Wanted
2. The Incredible Hulk
3. You don't mess with the Zohan
4. Kung Fu Panda
That's all. Missed out a few though. But I've downloaded some. Quite bad but who cares? Everyone is doing so too.
It's not pretty bad. Shall say I should have made full use of it first as July and August is doomsday for me. AHHHH!!!
Well, have decided for SG Flyer. Couldn't make up my mind due to some considerations. Rather, some people psycho me for both. Which left a fickle-minded girl like me unsure. Anw, thanks for preparing your supposedly surprise for me like 2 months in advance. I appreciate that. =D Besides that, I also apologize for you in getting the wrong stuffs, made me feel so bad that you gotta discard or somehow find a solution to it. But you said discard. ZZZZ. Waste of Money you know! $$$$. So you and your funny ideas is really coming up. Saying I shouldn't faint when I see your present. Kaoz. Before I get any surprise, you said all these stuffs. Nice one. Ask the plushy to prepare the Rainbow, I bet IT can do so.
ITB makes me crazy and it still does right now. Headache.
Gonna start work tomorrow after school, shall chiong already.
The day of evil is coming. heh heh.
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