Anli - If you do get to see this. Just wanna tell you that I reached home at 6.30am. I'm safe. Don't worry ok. I've sent an sms to you. Wonder if you did receive. So sorry for letting you call me again. It's very expensive. I will motivate myself to forget him alright? I can't guarantee that I wouldn't hurt myself but I won't poison myself again.

I'm deeply hurt three sixty. It's unbearable and I know there's also faults from me that created this, but there are some stuffs that I didn't tell anyone about the hurt he had done to me. No point too, like how I wanna tell him too. So as told, even if you so wanna patch back, but he had already made his point clear and he doesn't want to listen to you anymore, don't try to explain whatever that has left. There's no point. I see that, and it hurts again.

Too many things to say, thank you Jack. I wouldn't distant or create a barrier with you. Sorry if I ever did.

Jack told me stuffs which I knew that's why he had faded out before,
so here it is: you were irritating, pisses people off, don't put your message across easily, don't get what people are trying to tell you when it's so obvious, have no thought of the feelings of others, although you don't mean to for all of that like seriously, but there's one big special quality that I see in you. Is that what you told some people?? Wonder if it's true...Till the day a guy who sees that, he'll be the guy that you will be with. Although telling me bout the future guy thing doesn't really help. Told you I'll be single already, believe me. ahhh.. SO what's that?? I really wonder. Sorry if i cried a lot but you said I have to. Unglamarous again. The deal is, if I have seriously gotten over him and felt nothing the next time, he will give me the answer because it's a whole lot. ??????? That's the motivation that I have to work towards to. Sighs. I will try. Because he has already forgotten about us what, so I should do the same too, and to get backlashing from him again, when I've already told him on the phone. That's when I called you alright which made me wanna call you. That's not what I said after the phone thing. WTH.
To add on - he told me some stuffs about titan which will happen but I should not worry too much about him. He knows I will in time to come. dang ok. shall not. I will start worrying about myself, my health and before school starts.
Please don't tear or cry. Just read your blog. You're fast at posting. Your blog made me cry. My heart would ache too. And many people will. My posts at my blog ain't that of an effect. No one would feel that same way as me. I will cry in the rain as recommended by you. I will do that.

It's only Day 6 and I wouldn't know how much I have to endure. It's terrible. The only thing to do is if I could MIA right now...