Hi people! Monster is back, or rather sunshine is back. A nice name given by the Sand.
Dont ask me why he's called a Sand too, I'm told to do so. haha.
Wells, F1 Night Race is finally over with Fernando Alonso clinching the first ever night race title. Sadly, Kimi Raikkonen and Felipe Massa - Both the Ferrari Team, didn't make it through. Had some major cock-ups. But it's alright. They will still make it through in some manner.
Was at the scene of F1 yesterday, the 27th, Sat. Although I was sick, but I tried my very best to not be sick. Still, my body temperature is still high. It's really a fascinating sight of it, though cars passes by really quick and noises filled the air, kinda like it because it's the first experience that I had. I just love it being there because it's the fresh experience and also the liking for cars. Girls do love cars too. Amazingly, my friend's like what, you know much more about cars than me. How could you? Thanks, praise me. heh. I gotta thank my friend, Suresh, for asking me to go for the race. cheers. Some pictures of it will be uploaded but not really good ones. Couldn't really get a good take out of the face Formula one cars.
So after the roaring and palpitating axieties, quite a few buzzed me asking me to chill and party after F1. All at the wrong time. Do I look like one who likes to go to such places or will appear there almost every now and then? The answer is: I don't know. In fact, I do not like it. I would rather chill with a few of my good friends at better ambiences which I deemed better. Or just by the beach, looking at the stars, and just feeling the sea breeze. After much consideration and some negotiation, with the fact that I'm really sick, went to meet Hong Ping for a short short while. Supposed to meet her in the first place as she told me she's with another friend (girl) and needs my company for good. Reason being because her bf needs me to be there such that she could be there. So yea, I did meet her after F1 as it was near. However, instead, I met up with some people whom I didn't really wanted to see. Shall say, that's kind of least expected. There's some kind of awkward moment. It sort of affected me. Smart girl, asking me to get down for ..... So, I ignored the fact that he was there, trying to occupy myself and then told ping that I really wanted to go off. Reason: I'm not in the mood and am sick! So I kind of screwed up the plan she had in mind, or maybe there wasn't a plan initially?
Shortly after, she had some tiffs with her jerome and then it continued. Could understand how she felt. Guys.. They will still remain as guys. Girls will never get to understand what they really want. Especially if they're guys who don't know what they seriously want in life. Cut the crap for guys to say if they really know what they want or have plans if actions do not show. Have seen too many of it already. Only very few have proved to me so, and, it is that tiny few that I know.
Well, it dawned that it was the 'not in the mood day' for the both of us. I told her we should go home, so we headed for the train at 12am. 2 girls having kind of complicating problems boggling them. At least, I guess hers isn't as bad as mine. Shall not compare. Yes.
Ping actually commented informally: ' Girl, Titan so flirt ah? Why there's like a drastic change in him?'
My reply to her was: How would I know? If you count whatever you see or hear as being flirtatious at such pubby areas then maybe yes. But I have no answer for that. For me to know and for you to find out. It's him and because it's him many drastic changes can happen. And to add on, he's not really what you think. Get to know him better then you'll know. Me, once, being his girlfriend, shall not comment too much. If not, I will be accused of backlashing, back stabbing him with no justifiable facts. You shall discover it yourself. But girl, point to note, and also it's not only me saying this, once his friends and also people who have seen him once and heard about the stuffs going on, reckoned he's not as simple as it seems. He don't know what he wants and you shall hold your guard.
Ping: Why didn't you guys talk?
Me: Why should I? There's nothing to talk about and besides, he told me to never ever contact him, NEVER. So, I shall just follow suit whatever is lashed to me from that very day onwards. I'm just fulfilling his request from me. So yea.
Ping: aiyo, ni men ah ( you 2 ah), Sighs... Shakes heads
Upon replying, I felt like urgh, all these came out of my mouth? She's like kind of shocked when she actually asked me and also hearing my replies. Well, I'm a person who tells things honestly, right, Sand?? hahas. You know me too well.
Then asked for SOS when I was at Boat Quay because I seriously wanna leave that place for good. My mood and everything seriously added up on more heat. He's like, hmm why are you there? I explained then, he's like hmmm will rescue you. I didn't want to bother Sand, but yes, I did. Sand really rushed all the way from parkway (pang-sehing his friends) to home and then to escort me. Cool huh. Sorry ah. I'm really sorry dude. Running in court shoes is really not a good thing, he said. Especially up the hill of tanah merah? oh my gosh. I really owe you loads. Hint hint Xmas or maybe random days. ahahas. Many stuffs happened to me and I don't know how to explain but I should say I'm blessed to know you, Sand. Although you're in my extended circle from the beginning, but now, it's not. If you still regard as that, I will be upset. Of course I do have my cliques, the close ones and don't know whoever, but, it's just a word - different.
Waited a little bit as Sand was worried, though I said it's ok that I can go home myself since there's still extended train service. But, it's a no, answer. Expected.
So it's the 2nd day in a row, that I emo-ed to Sand. Don't ask me why it's always during these certain times. Emo-ed for quite a long time. Sick, but still, I felt that I'll feel really better after emo-ing than keeping emotions to myself. Sand said I'll take 1-3months? I don't know how long it will be. Well, Thanks a lot for the comfort and also the concerns about me. hmmms. At Guilin park, looked up at the sky and counted 13 stars. Upon looking at it, somehow, tears started rolling down. and then it continued...
Adding on - Who's the star?? I wonder if there is.
I will pick myself up again but it does take time.
Please don't fade as long as I live.
Point to note: I don't attract many guys. Though your position in my life, has caused many people to do many stuffs to get it. Somehow, none has reached the point where I deemed as a pass. So, don't try to teach anyone of them. No funny thoughts from you. hahas.
Anli is back but now she's at Shanghai? Am so so glad to see her on yesterday. She's like can we walk the F1 circuit? Sadly, gotta tell her she couldn't, but only I can. haas. I miss you so much girl. To see you back in SG again is just that great. We as usual, when we're out, it's SHOPPING Spree. Bought a pair of slippers, a sort of jacket-coat and a polo shirt. It added to don't know how much. She bought quite a lot too. When we're out it's just many going down the drain. But it's a happy thing to shop! yayness. Then met up with Sand again because he's coming to Suntec too and then passed him my shopping bags. Thanks for keeping them safe but also attracting middle-aged women to you. The stuffs I bought must have attracted them.. ponders, are you're a middle-aged lady killer? heh heh. *winks* The 3 of us met, Sand and Anli hadn't seen each other for like a long time too. So then Sand whispered some stuffs to Anli, I wonder what was he trying to tell her. Eh, I really wanna know, because you 2 had some kind of like secret and I know it's definitely bout me.
Anyway, shall see you again on Saturday when you're back girl.
Hugs and Misses.
So for today, I slept quite a bit, not a lot but had afternoon nap till before F1 started. Went to visit and return Darrel(oily) AC uniform, together with Jackson Toh and Wei Kiang. Then as usual, the 2 funny and kind of sick people. Especially oily. Bai kah but still as sick as ever. You slackerr, rot at home and still get paid by SAF which includes operational expenses. What a waste of the country's resources, do you know? I guess you should be the LOLI. It suits you. They mah-jonged and so I just see them play the game. Somehow, couldn't seem to get it no matter how hard i try. Then, headed home with them and rested till then. So basically that's my day. Didn't meet my clique for the birthday celebration as am running down a fever still and partly also something that I didn't want to portray in front of them. Something to do with them and also myself. Shall not say more. I will meet you girls tomorrow after my driving lesson. No worries, even if I'm still sick I will appear to make the day memorable. yeap that's me. Don't ask me why. Just like how unexpectedly, I upsetted Sand in a manner that day on Friday. Can 'Cui' which means to crush or just spoil
things in a maner. So I cui-ed my image and also his motto.
Things has to move on and trying to hold back doesn't do any good. Although some things remains unchanged, but history will still be a part of it.
I'm not gonna count the days I'm suffering but it's Day 21 up till date.
So...
I'll ensure that I recover very soon, and please I need my eye back. It's swollen for like 4 days already. It did subside a little today, but still, people who saw me, could see the swelled up eye and also together with the super heavy eye bags.
Till then and then again.
A real smile from me will not come so soon, but I will show you the smiles whenever possible.
I will cherish people whom I will have to.
"Tell me 3 words, 8 Letters, and I'll be yours"
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C R U S H
by David Archuleta
I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time deep inside
It was a rush, what a rush
'Cause the possibility
That you would ever feel the same way about me
It's just too much, just too much
Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I've just got to know
Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?
Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Has it ever crossed your mind
When we're hanging, spending time girl, are we just friends?
Is there more, is there more?
See it's a chance we've gotta take
'Cause I believe that we can make this into something that will last
Last forever, forever
Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?
Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I've just got to know
Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?
Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
This crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
CRUSH!!!
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