So yes. I have to update many people about my life. Sometimes I do wish that I do not have to. But it seems that I still ought to do so. Especially special close friends. You know who you are. I know you guys care, but I do hope that I wouldn't be a burden to any of you. That's simply because, you all are dear to me. The love and care being showered to me is inevitable from all of you. Thanks.

I am said to be a destructive person by him. I have caused many scars to him. Well, yes I did, but it was all right from the start. A wrong start for the both of us. My super special friend jacko said 'you reap what you sow'. I felt really so. Yes, I do get that impact right now. So far, he's the other person who knows how i felt about this whole relationship. Besides him it's guan keat, my old friend. He knows about it too right from the beginning. I do wonder how he got to know so much about me at the point that he actually had a liking for me ever since till that day. Must be my friend telling loads of stuffs about me and my personality. Ever since, so ya, he fell for me. like idiot. I didn't know till months later. And so that's the reason I've been wondering. So we aren't on good terms anymore. The reason is because he couldn't convince me to stay away from TT? And didn't want to see me seriously hurt by him again and again? ahh. Maybe I do regret right now, but why should I? Because it had already happened and has happened. Was updating jack about gk. Gk's doing fine right now, going into NS real soon and had passed his driving not long ago i guess? Although he met up with a sort of accident but was solved shortly. Is doing great with his gf michelle. My friend, enough of your funny jokes btw me and gk. It's already in the past ah. He's moved on with someone else. Really felt like a laughing stock. You ah, didn't caution me earlier bout what he's trying to do to me. Anyway, all these have been a history of mine. I'm glad to hear that my long lost friend is doing well. Everyone's doing well, and when I looked upon myself, I am not doing so so well. Am I? Indeed, I teared. No, I didn't. I cried terribly,and it's that bad. It shocked him to the extent that he teared too. Was worst when my phone got some kind of techincal probs. kaoz. Dude, I know I'm your special friend, but not to such an extent right? Your gf will worry a lot too. Like waking up at such a weird time, which is when I called for immediate rescue at the hotline 999. Do take care of yourself and do not worry about me because I will be fine. GF is more impt. Got it? That's my main concern. Although you're ranked the first few on my list too. Even if i'm not fine, I wouldn't want to be something between the both of you. I want my special friend to have a long lasting r/s too. OK???
Would like to thank you for the few hours of letting me divert my attention to something else. Like venting of anger on balls? Letting me wander my mind off. t's good because I didn't drink or smoke. I will hold on to my promise. It's because it's not only you, but also to him. You ah, Zai la. At least you're able to set my mind thinking not about him but some weird stuffs. Played few round of the game in his psp. AM glad that I improved ok!!! So don't anyhow. I We will never be able to get together again. I don't know how to talk to him already. It seems that there's nothing in common at every angle. I will still be there for him no matter what. But it will be at a status of a normal friend. For my side, will I still contact him? It takes time for me to heal. I won't shun or isolate myself from anyone. Special friend had this hunch that I will at the very end. I hope I wouldn't. Because your hunch super duper accurate. Like what I've told you, I've already planned my schedule in a packed manner. Such as to drain myself from insignificant thoughts. Hopefully, I won't just die flat with my weak condition. Ahhh. It's really killing me.
This is only day 1. And i'm still counting.

Jackson - Take care of yourself first. Don't worry about me. I will be fine just like your blog. haha. Your end which is her is much more impt than how I am right now. I am just very elated to have a wonderful special good friend like you. A treat will come in time. When you're free.

Wayne - I guess I'm alright. Although, I'm really hurt. We're not together already. I think this wouldn't shock you. Just like how I told cheryl.

Anli - if you happen to read my posts, yes, don't worry much about me ok. I will be waiting for your return. Maybe I should just leave this country at once. Like how I did previously.

Michael - I'm alright. No worries.

My LMAOs - Girls, I will update you all again after ur prelims ok? Don't worry about me at the moment. It's just life and part and parcel of it. I gotta endure. I won't isolate myself like how i did in the past. Kind of scary I guess.

So...
To end off, Bao ying I hoped you liked to company of the few of us. It's like us being quite close. I'm glad to organise this despite the fact that I'm not myself. I hope you liked the small celebration girl. Happy 18 once again. Will upload the pics some other time. Send me those that I didn't capture.
When will my memorable celebration or day come again?


Day 1 and there are still many more to succumb.
I will not MIA. So don't worry. Will not isolate myself in any manner. So if I do, please tell me.
Afterall, we weren't meant together due to the many difference and weird perspectives that we had. I did made many faults but the greatest fault that I've found in myself and also in him is just a long story behind. I guess it has explained itself already, and I guess you're right (GK). I've used someone and in return I'm being used in a wrong manner.
I wish all the best for you and I'm just a listening ear ahead if you wouldn't mind.